Friday, May 3, 2013
Never, Ever Give Up. Arthur's Inspirational Transformation!
I absolutely LOVE this clip. You can take this a spiritual way too. Never give up! "Keep on, Keepin' on" it just shows what people can do. Where you can end up if you just get back up and keep trying.
Monday, April 29, 2013
Confession
It's been a while since I posted on how I'm doing. Well, honestly, I don't feel like I'm doing well. When I was pregnant with Tetra, I was really scared that after I had her, I would have postpartum depression like I had after I gave birth to Wren. My fears have rung true, I have really had a hard time emotionally lately. It never hits me until about two months after I have had a baby, but when it hits, it hits hard, and sometimes it's all I can do to get out of bed in the morning.
Maybe I should fill you guys in on what postpartum depression is. For me, postpartum depression is like riding a rollercoaster with my eyes shut. Sometimes I feel really happy and then all of a sudden, I drop into a pit of anger and sadness. I feel very inadequate and unloved, often contemplating why I even try to continue on the earth. Don't freak out, I have never tried to end my life, but I do, at times, have those thoughts. I cry a lot. Sometimes I get mad at Heavenly Father asking him why I have to have this trial, wasn't being pregnant and giving birth hard enough. I just want to enjoy my husband and children and be a good wife and mom. Instead, I sometimes resent my husband and my children. It's really hard because I often feel like I can't control how I feel, and I've been taught all my life that I can. I have been wanting to write about postpartum depression for a long time because I think you ladies can help me get through this. I just wish I could get my old self back again! I love all of you!
Rachel
Maybe I should fill you guys in on what postpartum depression is. For me, postpartum depression is like riding a rollercoaster with my eyes shut. Sometimes I feel really happy and then all of a sudden, I drop into a pit of anger and sadness. I feel very inadequate and unloved, often contemplating why I even try to continue on the earth. Don't freak out, I have never tried to end my life, but I do, at times, have those thoughts. I cry a lot. Sometimes I get mad at Heavenly Father asking him why I have to have this trial, wasn't being pregnant and giving birth hard enough. I just want to enjoy my husband and children and be a good wife and mom. Instead, I sometimes resent my husband and my children. It's really hard because I often feel like I can't control how I feel, and I've been taught all my life that I can. I have been wanting to write about postpartum depression for a long time because I think you ladies can help me get through this. I just wish I could get my old self back again! I love all of you!
Rachel
Ugh!
Current weight: 170
Last week's weight: 170
UGH! I've been working out like crazy. (Ok. I didn't yesterday because it was Sunday and rainy so we didn't go on our normal family walk.) By the end I'm shaky. I'm dizzy. I'm SWEATY! But I feel awesome because I DID IT! I have also been really good at eating under my calorie level. AND I ran 2.5 miles on Saturday without stopping! So I was feeling pretty good about myself...And then I got on the scale this morning...Haven't lost a pound. Not ONE! And I've lost a measly .5" on my waist and gained 1" on my hips, both of which I am attributing to not measuring in the same place as before.
This is the part I hate about trying to loose weight--plateaus...I get so discouraged then decide it doesn't matter and binge away...I only have 250 calories left today and it's only 2:30 here. (Course...I usually have a binge problem this time o' the month.) Maybe I should go out for a walk later this afternoon...
Despite all this, I am not going to stop. Sarah, thanks for your comment on my last post. You are right. Numbers don't matter. And I should feel happy about me taking care of my body. I am. I feel good. I finally could sit on the couch today and not feel like I was going to fall to sleep if I read Heather any stories. That's success in my book. Maybe that has something to do with me finally getting to bed on time yesterday! (Another accomplishment!)
Last week's weight: 170
UGH! I've been working out like crazy. (Ok. I didn't yesterday because it was Sunday and rainy so we didn't go on our normal family walk.) By the end I'm shaky. I'm dizzy. I'm SWEATY! But I feel awesome because I DID IT! I have also been really good at eating under my calorie level. AND I ran 2.5 miles on Saturday without stopping! So I was feeling pretty good about myself...And then I got on the scale this morning...Haven't lost a pound. Not ONE! And I've lost a measly .5" on my waist and gained 1" on my hips, both of which I am attributing to not measuring in the same place as before.
This is the part I hate about trying to loose weight--plateaus...I get so discouraged then decide it doesn't matter and binge away...I only have 250 calories left today and it's only 2:30 here. (Course...I usually have a binge problem this time o' the month.) Maybe I should go out for a walk later this afternoon...
Despite all this, I am not going to stop. Sarah, thanks for your comment on my last post. You are right. Numbers don't matter. And I should feel happy about me taking care of my body. I am. I feel good. I finally could sit on the couch today and not feel like I was going to fall to sleep if I read Heather any stories. That's success in my book. Maybe that has something to do with me finally getting to bed on time yesterday! (Another accomplishment!)
Sunday, April 28, 2013
Sorry its taking me forever!!
Okay i don't have a lot of time to do the blog right now, i will definately do it soon though. I came up with two quotes though in the past month and week so i thought i would put them on the blog:)
:"A smile is a cheerful word unspoken"............and....
:(okay this ones a little weird and don't worry, i don't cuss or anything like that. I heard someone say this word and i came up with this like right after that. Anyways on to the quote!) "If your tired of someones BS, go scrub the toilets!"
Anyways i feel kinda guilty but its true.
Love you guys :)
:"A smile is a cheerful word unspoken"............and....
:(okay this ones a little weird and don't worry, i don't cuss or anything like that. I heard someone say this word and i came up with this like right after that. Anyways on to the quote!) "If your tired of someones BS, go scrub the toilets!"
Anyways i feel kinda guilty but its true.
Love you guys :)
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
Week 2: I knew I shouldn't have gotten on that scale today...
So, I'm nearing the end of the second week of the new me. :) All I'm gonna say is "IT'S NEXT TO IMPOSSIBLE TO GET TO BED ON TIME!!" Anyone else feel this way? What are some ideas that help you to get to bed/wake up on time? I've only got 3 pebbles this entire week mostly due to not getting to bed on time. Time just slips away and before I know it, its 10:30...
However, even though I haven't done well with my bedtime, I have done very well with exercise, tracking what I eat, and getting enough fruits, veggies, and water. (Which is why I am SO confused about how I gained a pound back...maybe it's water weight. Or new muscle.)
I have started doing the "Bikini Body Mommy" challenge, and it is kicking.my.butt. big time! I hope it helps me to loose weight (or at least get super toned and loose some flab). The best part about it, is that it is mostly Calisthenics (hardly any equipment, push ups, sit ups, jumping, Burpees, planks...all that good stuff). So I don't need to go anywhere, or get anything out and then have to fight over it when I need it (happens all the time...Heather has this thing for resistance bands). Anyway...we'll see how well it goes.
Current weight: 170
Last weeks weight: 169
However, even though I haven't done well with my bedtime, I have done very well with exercise, tracking what I eat, and getting enough fruits, veggies, and water. (Which is why I am SO confused about how I gained a pound back...maybe it's water weight. Or new muscle.)
I have started doing the "Bikini Body Mommy" challenge, and it is kicking.my.butt. big time! I hope it helps me to loose weight (or at least get super toned and loose some flab). The best part about it, is that it is mostly Calisthenics (hardly any equipment, push ups, sit ups, jumping, Burpees, planks...all that good stuff). So I don't need to go anywhere, or get anything out and then have to fight over it when I need it (happens all the time...Heather has this thing for resistance bands). Anyway...we'll see how well it goes.
Current weight: 170
Last weeks weight: 169
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
HELP!
So, I have done better accomplishing my goals this week, but I NEED HELP! Can anyone give me some idea's of things to do? I never realized how hard it would be to...BE a mom! I don't even have a toddler or teenagers or more than one kid. Taking care of Caleb is not the hard part. I can't just sit around all day! The house is usually clean, I can't unpack everything cause we are moving as soon as Leo gets a job, I can't do little projects for my house cause I don't have one yet....I try to play with Caleb, but that can get old after he gets bored of me making weird faces and talking funny to him. I find myself watching TV a ton and, well, it drains me and I feel icky at the end of the day. I come to the library with Leo almost everyday, just to get out and not spend money and use my computer for a while. I have thought of a few things like, listening to a good book on CD, going on walks (if it's warm enough for Caleb), cleaning (usually nothing really needs done), oh, and I have been taking better care of myself...doing my hair other than down or in a bun thing, wearing make-up and stuff. I do feel more awake and better about myself and my day (and it takes up time). ANYWAY...Any suggestions on what I can do???
Saturday, April 20, 2013
Trust In The Lord
Just when all seems to be going right, challenges always come in multiple doses simultaneously.
When those trials are not consequences of your disobedience, they are evidence that the Lord feels you are prepared to grow more (see proverbs 3:11-12). He therefore gives experiences to stimulate growth, understanding, and compassion which polish you for everlasting benefit. To get you from where you are to where He wants you to be requires a lot of stretching, and that generally entails discomfort and pain.... Your Father in Heaven and His Beloved Son love you perfectly. They would not require you to an experience a moment more of difficulty than is absolutely needed for your personal benefit or the benefit of those you love.
Love Mom
When those trials are not consequences of your disobedience, they are evidence that the Lord feels you are prepared to grow more (see proverbs 3:11-12). He therefore gives experiences to stimulate growth, understanding, and compassion which polish you for everlasting benefit. To get you from where you are to where He wants you to be requires a lot of stretching, and that generally entails discomfort and pain.... Your Father in Heaven and His Beloved Son love you perfectly. They would not require you to an experience a moment more of difficulty than is absolutely needed for your personal benefit or the benefit of those you love.
Love Mom
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